the juice's journey

I feel sometimes that the "juice" is making its way through my body, visiting here and there, and having effects of sorts, some good, some less than good. Every day is something different. The respite of pain in my wrist lasted maybe 48 hours, and seems to have reverted. The strength in the wrist has also diminished. Oh, and the headaches are back, as well as a bit of neck pain. I've felt a bit nauseous over the last few days, although that could just be a result of different eating habits during time on holiday. So much to analyse; so little that can be understood.

Mine does not appear to be a "standard" case of MMN, if there even is such a thing. This appears evident from my doctor's written report, and also from the feedback from another specialist who has reviewed my case. He found the data "fascinating", which may be an appropriate term for an observer who hungers to learn from the many cases he gets to see. For me, sitting inside the observation booth , the term is almost distasteful.

They speak of the "yoyo effect" of treatment, and it seems this exists both at a micro and macro level. On a day to day basis, my mood goes from optimistic to bitterly despondent and depressed. And I've hardly been in this long enough to get a macro perspective!